As a book review blogger, I’m accustomed to being turned down for ARCs, and usually, it doesn’t truly faze me beyond a moment of disappointment and an “Oh, well, I’ll just buy it on release.” mindset. Yet, I kept trying with one big publishing house for three years now – and still, the answer is No.
By their auto-response email definitions, I do meet their requirements for ARCs. So, obviously, I’m missing something, not doing something… not good enough, not big enough, not “whatever” enough. At this point, I’m just banging my head up against a wall – and I’m done with the headache, really, really done.
It would be easy to do the “reader revenge” thing by thinking “Ok, fine, I’ll just not buy any books from your publishing house ever again. So there! You’ve lost my significant money input.” But the reality is I love so many of their authors, I’m hooked on so many series, I look forward to their new releases… and I don’t want to stop reading any of their books.
So. Here’s the last “I’m so mad. So hurt. So disappointed.” post about the subject – and then, for my own well being, I’m simply letting it go and not asking again. I think the world of today is playing heavily on my reaction. I’m already somewhat depressed, antsy by being self-isolated for two months (so far) and that’s playing a part in how this simple rejection is affecting me. I get that. I acknowledge that. But, sometimes I just have to say, “Ok, I tried.” And let that be enough.